My Biggest Challenge
My biggest challenge right now is resisting. Let me explain.
Ok, so I’ve decided this year is going to be the year that moves me from quiet desperation to significance. I’ve set myself up with the Laptop Lifestyle Academy community, purchased the Blog Mastermind course and I’ve made the commitment to seeing the training through to completion. This past weekend was the July Fourth holiday weekend here in the US and I was going to kick some serious butt! I’d already set up my weekly goals with Kathy, my accountability partner and I was clear on what I wanted to get done.
What did I find myself doing? Playing Grand Theft Auto 5! That’s right, the video game! Forget the fact that I’ve already finished all the missions in it and that all I was doing was riding around looking for stupid things I could do. Forget the fact that I’m also NOT a hard core gamer. Nor am I particularly a good gamer.
Before I knew it, I had frittered away hours and had nothing to show for it. This, of course, leads to a nagging boost in depression which certainly doesn’t help either. I should also mention that I didn’t work out most of this weekend which is another nail in the attitude coffin.
None of that mattered because what I was doing had nothing to do with the game. I was simply resisting getting down to work because it scares me.
What Scares Me?
In a word, definition. Throughout my life and career I think I’ve fought against the pigeon-holing that comes from being defined as a cook, claims processor, librarian, IT professional, whatever. Since I was a young boy, I’ve always been interested in many things. I simply love learning new things! I enjoy the challenge of trying different approaches to life and its many situations.
What has scared me every time I’ve tried to do it is asking myself what is the most important thing to me. My life goals have never been as super refined as other people’s I’ve known. My belief was always if you’re going to change them anyway, what is the point of being super limiting about them? I’m a big fan of course correction mentality but I do think not having a definite end point when starting a journey can be deadly. This has been a theme that has run throughout my life and businesses.
Don’t get me wrong: I’ve never set out just to “make more money” or “build a business” or “have more friends”. No, I guess in that way my goals have been better than a lot of people’s. But better than a lot does not get you success in life either.
Believe me, if there ever was a work in progress, this is it! I’m OK with that because I believe our whole lives are meant to be a work in progress. We NEVER arrive wherever we are trying to go. Instead, we should focus on trying to get as close as we can to our goals while enjoying each step toward them.
What I Can Do
I can forgive myself, that’s what. Beating ourselves up about things we don’t do is about as productive as making yourself sick over not having food. Being pissed when you get stuck out on the road because you thought your car could go five more miles on vapors.
I am acknowledging my failing and forgiving myself.
Today, I can get back to work.
Today, I’m writing this post which actually helps me get clearer and allows me to mark one of the important to-do’s off my list. Tomorrow, will be another day and another chance to prove myself. Why waste it being pissed about today?
I’m not sure but I think I may have just restated one of life’s truisms: do what you can today with what you have and what you know and think about tomorrow when it gets here. Eckhart Tolle has said that yesterday and tomorrow are only dreams. The only time we really have is this moment right now!
I’m not saying this won’t come up again because I know that it will! I also don’t believe because I’ve talked about it that I won’t do it exactly the same way I have this time.
No, all that I’m saying is I’m NOT going to quit no matter how scared, pissed, upset, disappointed, bored or beaten down I feel. Elbert Hubbert hit the nail on the head with:
“There is no failure except in no longer trying.”
What Say You?
What have you been resisting lately? Why do you think you’re resisting it? I’d love to hear how you pushed through it! Please leave a comment below or use my contact form to get in touch with me. If this post hit you where you live, please share it on social media so others can see it.
Continuing on to success,